New Year’s REVOLUTION: Live More, Weigh Less
Have you been waiting on your weight to live? I mean to REALLY live: to travel the world, play with your friends, start dating, change careers, have a child, update your wardrobe, etc.
Until recently, I found myself waiting to be a certain pants size before feeling like I deserved to pursue my dreams. I kept thinking that once I was a size whatever that my life would be so much more enjoyable and fulfilling. Then, I stumbled upon Sarah Jenks‘ program: Live More Weigh Less.
What. A. Revelation.
Sarah has managed to put into words all of the feelings of inadequacy that society has instilled in our minds since our childhoods. How we don’t deserve to be happy, free, confident if we’re not a Size 0. I could soo relate…
At one point in my life, I was a Pants Size 6; I weighed 119 pounds. I starved myself to get there; I literally counted every calorie I ate and never had more than 900 calories a day. I dropped 60 pounds in a matter of months. I got so many compliments, it was ridiculous. Everyone thought I looked great. The ironic part: I didn’t think I was thin. I would look in the mirror and see potential to drop a few more pounds. I weighed myself every morning and would punish myself if I went up an ounce overnight. It was stressful. I may have looked great but, I wasn’t nourishing my body.
Once I got into college, my whole routine was shot. Over the course of 5 years in college, the stress of classes, money, work, and life in general had put back on every pound I’d lost and more. I still weighed myself every morning; feeling discouraged every time and causing myself to binge on whatever food was around. This continued into the years directly after college. I kept thinking back to when I was a Size 6 and how ‘happy’ I was. But, looking back on this period of time in my life, I was lost. I had lost who I was. I had forgotten what I enjoyed doing. I forgot what made me unique.
Last year, I started getting really desperate. I felt fat all of the time. I didn’t want to purchase any clothes until I lost weight. I didn’t want to be close to my hubby. I didn’t feel good in my skin. That is, until I found Sarah’s program. I listened to the free workshop on her website and cried. Everything she said was true for me.
I decided to purchase her Live More Weigh Less program to dive deeper into her philosophy. It was hard to invest that much money in myself; I felt selfish. However, I think it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done for me. I’ve stopped doubting myself, I’ve stopped weighing myself, I’ve stopped putting all of my worth in my gravitation pull towards the earth and I’ve started living. One of the huge things I’ve done is taking the steps towards creating this blog. It’s been a crazy learning curve for me and outside of my comfort zone but, it’s made me feel alive. And although I don’t know whether I’ve lost any weight, I feel lighter. I feel like me, again.
I would encourage you to check out Sarah’s blog post on Crafting a Meaningful 2016. What do you want to accomplish in the New Year? How are you going to overcome your insecurities? How are you going to pursue your passion?